Kuenza's Diary

I would like to thank Rekha Monger and Penstar for initiating a way to let bloggers know each other better. It gives me a chance to introduce myself to those who don’t know me. 1.      Why did you start blogging in the first place? And what’s the story behind your blog title? ð I started blogging mainly to keep up my interest in writing. It gave me the space and opportunity. It sprung as a result of my interest in writing, and the habit of keeping a journal. I transferred almost all the writings I had maintained before in my journals/notebooks to my blog. The title of my blog speaks for itself. It is more like a diary – keeping note of what happens to me, what I observe and sometimes, I write fictional short stories. 2.      How long have you been blogging? Where are you based? ð I have been blogging since 2007. I think I actually started in 2006. I initially blogged in wordpress.com but later moved it to blogspot.com because of the...

Buddhism Buddhism doesn't shun, it doesn't differentiate - it encompasses everything in its rich vastness. I have always believed that Buddhism is not a religion. It is more than science of mind: I mean to say that it doesn't only tell us how of many things in our lives but it tells us the basic thing of how to live. I have it in my mind, the desire to really feel the realization of the nature of mind and I feel that this will let me be more moral and this fact reassures me that I won't turn nasty - not in any way. Why Killing Animals is a Sin Killing animals is a sin according to me. It is not because Buddhism tells us that it is a sin. It is because, I can feel it inside myself the wrong in it. 1. It is a sin to take lives of other living beings - and it is a simple fact that needs no justification. 2. Humans were not born to make balance in the ecosystem - other animals do that because they are not equipped like humans to have other means. 3. Humans can't be equa...

To me, life isn't about pursuing dreams and forgetting its small subtle things that give happiness. Happiness comes from realizing your dreams Actually what we desire most in life is love and all great people in history have accepted that. The emotions that come in the simplest forms are like ambrosia to the Gods. The sweetest nectar. Love is so eminent in us.....it is like a wave. Rises and falls. That is what I’m saying...actually the basic need for human isn't accomplishing high dreams and ambitions but having what our heart desire. I feel everyone who has got some titles is one who have worked for it If only u knew...love can encompass a whole galaxy in it. I’m sure when two people think of each other; they can really feel each other You are like a rainbow...I can only see u stretch above me with your splendor It’s a longing that a child has for his mom. It’s longing...a craving for the stars to fall There are times when you meet someone and though you hardly know him/her, ...

From M: Dude, you know what, you’re such a special friend of mine. You don’t know that somewhere sometimes down the river once you were there for me. Dude, may the coming anniversaries in your life make love between two of you stronger and have a beautiful life. Dude remember that your lover is the best person in the world and nothing should lessen your love for him. To Bro. Tshering: Persistent practice is what your course demand and I know you have quite the potential for it. A brother’s word resounding in my mind, it even made me feel a little emotional. It carried me way back to the early days of my childhood when I had fun as a kid…and you invented games to keep us all gay. To Karma: I’m sorry for being too idiotic, not even sending you a message. I was bit worried but I thought nothing wrong would come to you. Not because sickness can’t inflict you, but I’ve this faith which says you are strong and would be through with anything. It may seem that I don’t care, but your wellbeing ...

From Jimy An unexamined life is not worth living. Greater task requires greater plans and thoughts. A decision of life cannot be bartered within seconds. Love is painful…love hurts. Gladdened am I that friendship doesn’t. “FAINT HEART NEVER WON A FAIR LADY” Kavita: You know you can spend so much only when you love the person. It is not that money is so important. But you see, money is for us and we are not for money. Brother Tshering: No matter what, you should never forget the purpose you are here.

There were times when my thoughts just wouldn’t go along with some people. “Mark here, I ain’t trying to blame anyone…it is just that, at that moment and still, for a person like me I had not been blessed enough to think any divine. I accepted the fact…I just couldn’t understand you trying to take around some false truth. I don’t lose my temper easily, unless a person really climbs up my sleeve. I can get it back even then. You call someone name, call it. I remain me, even if you call me thousand names. I hate hypocrites. If you wanna say something, say it right out. Don’t point fingers at my life. I live it and no one tells me how. Just like that. I’ve many reasons and believe me it is good for both of us. Sorry for all the distrust caused and the falsity created. I think I understand what you are feeling but I’m scared to understand more. It will be a mischief to do something amiss and amiss will be everything that involves us. Let’s not make it tough. It doesn’t mean you cannot love...

To J.D.: You are right that life is an endless journey. But if life were to be an idle sitting, we would all have died of boredom. I like life being a journey. I like life being a series of birth and death. I like life being a mixture of joy and sorrow I like life being a world of friends and family. I like life as it is. SMS to a friend: I’ve never for a moment wished I were someone or were like them. I like myself being myself and I’m happy my way. To cheku; I know you are full of humor…but in you being serious for a moment won’t lose its charms. Because what you have in inborn is never lost or destroyed. To my nephew: Life is not just about the zing of being big and having fun; it is about how much you can realize the truth. Be a good person. Just be the human you are. To Kinley Gyelmo: Friends once were friends now. Friendship passes the test of time. I miss you and I wish I could catch you up right now and have a good time once again. I get a gnawing sensation of sadness dawning o...

I feel an overwhelming sadness casting a darker shadow over my heart. I would better let you know that I’m alive when I’m…now, do I talk like I’m not gonna see tomorrow? That is how I feel. (I would often think of death in the sudden dark still night and feel like death wasn’t far) You be with a person and do everything together…you get so used to being with him that you just don’t know what to do without him. And you can’t help but miss him. You know when two people are in love, their hearts beat as one and they feel the same. I’m happy that it is happening to us. To you I give what I’m and not what I’m not. Not more, not less but true me. You see what I’m. I’ve no hidden vice or nasty tricks. With what I’m, you are but, a part of me. You are not sure because you don’t trust me…you don’t trust me because you don’t trust yourself. You don’t trust yourself because you are not sure of what you say or do. All I can say is that I trust myself to trusting you and loving you with all my hear...

Snatches of Conversation I’m sorry that it has to come to an end this way. It has nothing to do with not loving you. It has turned out this way. Sometimes, things have their own hand on us…we can’t really make them not happen. My dear, just keep smiling…because that seems to be the best way to live and let the world blow with her own cruelty. If something is damaged, we can mend. What is hurt can be healed. If life were to be lived backwards, there need not have been a future. What matters is how you are going to live and how you are going to end your story. If you are not there when I need you, where is the use of your loving me? If I find you gone, when I’m lonely, where is the use of your being mine? It is same for everyone. Everyone has to fall in love, and everyone has to feel the pain. For me, life means living each new day, hoping, we could live better than yesterday, not having to bring yesterday into the memoirs of today. It doesn’t mean that you have to overlook the past alto...