Kuenza's Diary

14th September, 05 Dear L, I’m at a loss of word at this moment not cause I don’t have anything to say but cause I don’t know how to begin and from where. We indeed traveled a larger part of the world than I can put right out here. Days then were brighter and our laughter more lasting. Life indeed was more than a living. We really lived cause we knew the essence of ourselves and the futility of words uttered at mere envy and leisure. Now, how far have we traveled? And for how long? Can we really count? I know days were more than countable and happiness was simply infectious. We did cry but tears never left us shattered. We always had a way to smile and a reason to laugh. Things never were too bad; and this was all because I had a friend walking beside me who saw nothing but the better side of life. You did make me see many things hidden behind the cloud of life and made me realize the meaning of being an individual. I probably failed you for more times than I can remember. I know I c...

Buddhism Buddhism doesn't shun, it doesn't differentiate - it encompasses everything in its rich vastness. I have always believed that Buddhism is not a religion. It is more than science of mind: I mean to say that it doesn't only tell us how of many things in our lives but it tells us the basic thing of how to live. I have it in my mind, the desire to really feel the realization of the nature of mind and I feel that this will let me be more moral and this fact reassures me that I won't turn nasty - not in any way. Why Killing Animals is a Sin Killing animals is a sin according to me. It is not because Buddhism tells us that it is a sin. It is because, I can feel it inside myself the wrong in it. 1. It is a sin to take lives of other living beings - and it is a simple fact that needs no justification. 2. Humans were not born to make balance in the ecosystem - other animals do that because they are not equipped like humans to have other means. 3. Humans can't be equa...

We aren't rich couples who laze in the luxury of wealth but simple, honest couple who try to grasp small meanings in life and not the bigger riches that vanish in moments. We were both raised in the farming family which makes us more mature than other people of our age. We have seen more than those who are raised in town. We have seen hardship they haven't. He is special because he understands me more than anyone else. Sometimes, even more than myself. He stands by me and give me time to realize my mistakes, if ever there is one. We aren't at that tender age where marriage is taken as some kind of a relationship that can be broken and replaced with a new one. As we move along in life, we together come to understand that marriage is a function of a lifetime that cannot be repeated in the same pattern and that nor can we feel the same for another person in quite the same way we do with that person who hold our hand for the first time. ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; ...

To me, life isn't about pursuing dreams and forgetting its small subtle things that give happiness. Happiness comes from realizing your dreams Actually what we desire most in life is love and all great people in history have accepted that. The emotions that come in the simplest forms are like ambrosia to the Gods. The sweetest nectar. Love is so eminent in us.....it is like a wave. Rises and falls. That is what I’m saying...actually the basic need for human isn't accomplishing high dreams and ambitions but having what our heart desire. I feel everyone who has got some titles is one who have worked for it If only u knew...love can encompass a whole galaxy in it. I’m sure when two people think of each other; they can really feel each other You are like a rainbow...I can only see u stretch above me with your splendor It’s a longing that a child has for his mom. It’s longing...a craving for the stars to fall There are times when you meet someone and though you hardly know him/her, ...

From Left: Kyangsom, Kinley & I From Left: Tenzy, Leki and I With Phub Dem (she is one on the Right) With Lungten (L on the left)

From M: Dude, you know what, you’re such a special friend of mine. You don’t know that somewhere sometimes down the river once you were there for me. Dude, may the coming anniversaries in your life make love between two of you stronger and have a beautiful life. Dude remember that your lover is the best person in the world and nothing should lessen your love for him. To Bro. Tshering: Persistent practice is what your course demand and I know you have quite the potential for it. A brother’s word resounding in my mind, it even made me feel a little emotional. It carried me way back to the early days of my childhood when I had fun as a kid…and you invented games to keep us all gay. To Karma: I’m sorry for being too idiotic, not even sending you a message. I was bit worried but I thought nothing wrong would come to you. Not because sickness can’t inflict you, but I’ve this faith which says you are strong and would be through with anything. It may seem that I don’t care, but your wellbeing ...

I was sitting outside on a bench, thinking over life; the many small things that constitute life and the inconsistency of our thoughts…the moment was beautiful. A moment where I could just close my eyes and dream beautiful dreams. Life without seriousness sometimes becomes like an undulating waves. You really make things interesting. I say one thing, you say another…and everything just about negates everything. But like it as it is. Maybe you deny your feeling finding them interrupting your principles. The breathtaking scene of the sunset over the sea and the deep blueness of the sea itself, with a romantic song in my heart, and a sight frightfully romantic, I could feel nothing, think nothing and do nothing but miss you like never before. Friendship, love, trust…these are some of the beautiful things in life. I have them because I have you. My love shall last so long as I do…and even beyond that. Love is forever. Some say it…some think it. Some know it.